a thousand years story

I used to be a hopeless romantic. I believe in all things romance, love at first sight, love without boundries, soulmate, and i do believe that there is one person made for another. My favorite book is a contemporary romance, and my favorite movie is a romance movie.

I still am a hopeless romantic. but however, my degree of romanticism may have been dropped. I still do believe in all of those things, but i may have become somewhat cynical towards love. Maybe i have become more realistic. Wiser, maybe?!

Ever since i am a little girl, i dreamt of my own romance story. It doesnt have to be as great as romeo juliet story, but it is a love story no less. a story to be told to our future kids, a sweet memory to hold us during the hard time. An untained memory that will be cherished for the rest of our life. i dont want it to be a unique story, so out of real time story, i just want it to be us. And yes, we do have our own story. Just a simple story, not special to others but special to us. But for now, i dont taste any sweetness in it, it just another story for me.

While you are in a relationship, there are other things that mattered apart from love. There’s family, friends, distance, money, attitude, and Faith. all in all combined and play a small yet significant part. Love only will not hold you through the day.

Some will say:

'be thankful, at least you got a boyfriend, to love with all your heart and soul, compare to be, no boyfriend no scandal'.

Yes dear, i am thankful, but seriously dear, you dont wanna be in my shoes.

 

~ Thousand Years ~

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OHkvan-NFnM

the weekend rest story

for the first time in a very long time today, i've come to work with a positive attitude. i would say that i have had enough rest during the weekend. last saturday, i was supposed to attend a lecture, and submit the last lab report on behalf of my group. but  end up sleeping until noon on Saturday (memang malam tuh dah plan malas nak g klas pun @.@), and didnt finish the report until 3 pm on Sunday. last last, hari ahad jugak le submit report tuh. but all in all, i've had more than anough sleep, spent some quality time with my besterestest friend, who will be going back to hometown next month. this would be the last chance that we could spend some time together. nanti, bila dia dah balik kampung, memang susah la nak berjumpa. and nanti kalo me or her will get married, makin la jarang kitorang akan jumpa. jumpa kejap kejap tu mungkin boleh, tapi nak hangout together lepak lepak makan kek secret recipe sampai tak larat nak abes mungkin dah tade.

back to the story. lepas hantar lab report, memang dah tade kerja nak kene submit lagi untuk minggu ni. except for next week la, ada a few assignments and home test nak kene siapkan. and pagi tadi, pergi amek adik kat bustop, datang sini sebab ada intebiu. singgah umah pakcik untuk dia tumpang mandi suma, then hantar dan tunggu dia kat company tu. then balik umah, mandi siap siap terus datang kerja. waktu tengah siap siap tu, tetiba *macam biasa* hati akan terdetik:

'malasnya nak g kerja, kalo duk umah best je. tak cukup 2 hari je weekend. kalo weekend 3 hari kan best'. 

but dunno why, after that terus fikir:

'tak bagus la fikir camtu, duk umah pun bukan buat benda berguna pun, baik pergi keje dengan ikhlas dengan niat nak beribadat'.

see see see, kan ke berfikiran matang tuh. hehehe. jadi kesimpulannya,bekerja lah saya pada hari ini dengan raa penuh keikhlasan dan lapang dada. moga ini akan berterusan, di lapangkan hati dalam menunaikan ibadat bekerja, dan semoga rezeki yang diperturunkan membawa keberkatan. amin :)

the mellow story

if there is one word to describe me, i would choose MALAS.

only one word is enough to desribe me. all the time, i am sooo malas.

malas nak bangun awal, malas nak kerja, malas nak buat assignment.

kalau hari cuti duk sorang kat umah, lagi la menjadi jadi perangai malas tu.

dulu pernah belajar Maslow pyramid ape tah, yang explain pasal the things that made us wake up in the morning. dont ask me what is what, i surely didnt remember. tanya incik google please. normally, I wouldnt know what motivate me to wake up in the morning, except for kerja dan class. and shopping or jalan-ing with friends.

but, kalau ada lagi yang bertanya, what would would best describe me at this particular time, i wouldnt know what. there is no exact word for this. mellow? romantic? content? thinker? this particular time would be midnite. 1.40 am to be exact. listening to fly fm. tetiba terdengar lagu yang membuatkan saya..terharu? mengeluh? berfikir? bukan, saya bukan mengeluh pasal kehidupan. bukan tidak berpuas hati. tapi terkadang, bila malam semacam ini, dengar pulak lagu yang membuai perasaan, something inside you shift. you are like missing something but you are not sure what. you are like sighing, mellowed over things that you dont know what is it.

at times like this, everything else seems dont matter.

lab report tak siap? tak kesah.

duit gaji tak cukup sampai ujung bulan? so what?

adik adik buat perangai lawan makayah? lantak korang la.

esok kena hantar proposal kat client? kene follow up ngan user? kene complete online form? malas nak kalut kalut.

the only thing that would matter now, that usually come to mind on this particular time is:

apakah sebenarnye tujuan hidup? apakah yang sebenarnya perlu aku buat hari hari, untuk mengisi kekosongan hati?

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now, does this got you thinking as well..?

the one that got away story

sing a long everybodyyy ~

Summer after high school when we first met
We make out in your Mustang to Radiohead
And on my 18th Birthday
We got matching tattoos


Used to steal your parents' liquor
And climb to the roof
Talk about our future
Like we had a clue
Never planned that one day
I'd be losing you


In another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world


In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away


I was June and you were my Johnny Cash
Never one without the other we made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you
I put those records on


Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown singing the Blues
It's time to face the music
I'm no longer your muse


But in another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world


In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away


All this money can't buy me a time machine
It can't replace you with a million rings
I shoulda told you what you meant to me
'Cause now I paid the price


In another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world

backdated post: the update story

'zaman berubah, manusia pun berubah'

-iklan-

setelah hamir setahun bekerja, saya kini telah dinaikkan pangkat atau lebih tepat lagi

ditambah bebanan kerja tanpa kenaikan gaji. takpelah, orang kata new responsibily kan,

yang penting kita dapat belajar. gaji tak penting. kata orang, kata saya tak !!

berbalik kepada cerita, setelah naik nye jawatan itu, maka secara langsung nye jadual kerja

mula berubah. kalau dulu masuk kerja pukul 4pagi sampai 1tengahari, sekarang 6petang

sampai 3pagi. duh. jangan ditanya macam mana saya manage, sekarang baru minggu pertama.

kita tunggu report minggu akan datang.

maka sekarang, my internal body clock tengah menyesuaikan diri dengan jadual baru ini.

its not bad, balik kul 3, tido kul 4, then bangun 12tengahari. seronok !! tapi tidak elok

untuk kesihatan, apatah lagi umur sekarang menjangkau dari awal 20an ke lewat 20an.

tido banyak, makan tak menentu, eksesais nye tidak. tak bagus tak bagus.

dan sekarang, ada lagi setengah jam nak balik. lepas lepas pukul 12, biasa takde kerja.

waktu ni la terasa bersalah nye makan gaji buta *menipu*. waktu nak bukak fesbuk, nak

bukak novel pun rasa lain je. macam serba salah, macam ada yang pantau je. nak buat kerja,

kerja tade, cemane tu? *ehem, sebenarnye kerja ada je, tapi bukan kerja major pun, lebih

kepada follow up, jadi macam biasa kita kategorikan sebagai KIV*.

dan hujung minggu ni ada test. macam mana ni kawan-kawan? saya sangat lah tidak ready.

letih sambung belajar master ni. amek 2 subjects je, lecturer jenis yang senang kawtim

lak tu, tapi still tak dapat nak follow. macam bodoh rasanya. ke manakah menghilangnya

diriku yang pandai meng-adapt dulu? ini semua yang belajar macam mengalir keluar, test

quiz assignment semua hancuss. macam mana...

lagu tema: stupid in love (versi ne-yo yang best)

Let me tell you something

Never have I ever been a size ten in my whole life

I let the engine running

I just came to see

What you would do if I gave you a chance to make things right

So made it, even though Katy told me that this will be nothing but

A waste of time

And she was right

Don’t understand it but on your hands is still you insist on repeatedly trying to tell me lies

And I just don’t know why

This is stupid

I'm not stupid

Don’t talk to me

Like I'm stupid

I still love you but

I just can't do this

I maybe dumb but

I'm not stupid

My new nickname is you idiot (such an idiot)

That’s what my friends are calling me

When they see me I lean'n to my phone

They're telling me let go

He is not the one

I thought I saw your potential

I guess that’s what made me dumb

He don’t want it.

Not like you want it

Scheming and cheating

Oh girl why do you waste your time

You know he aint right

They're telling me this

I don’t wanna listen but you insist on repeatedly trying to tell me lies

And I just don’t know why

This is stupid

I'm not stupid

Don’t talk to me

Like I'm stupid

I still love you but

I just can't do this

I maybe dumb but

I'm not stupid

Trying to make this work

But you act like good jerk

Silly of me to keep holding on

But the dust can't resolve

You don’t know what you've lost

And you won't realize till

I'm gone, gone, gone

That I was the one

Which one of us is really dumb

I'm maybe dumb but I'm not stupid in love

**i am not dumb, and i dont want to be stupid in class**

The Marah Story

being a woman, i do love to nag. tambah lagi sebagai anak sulung, nagging tu jah satu satu contoh komunikasi dgn adik adik. dorang pun tak tak rasa apa dah sebab dah selalu kene bebel.

but what if, you are soooo mad but you cannot nag it the person yang buat you marah. marah tak marah tak? so what, you nak kena pendamkan je all the fire until it you cool off? true, marah itu sifat syaitan, you wont get anywhere by being mad. but how come, orang dah buat kita marah, dont we have the priviledges to marah dia?

The Avril Story

damn..damn..damn..

what i do to have you here

i just wish you were here

sometimes Avril is sweet, in her own way. wonder if this song is dedicated to her ex hubby?

i can be tough, i can be strong,

but with you, its not like that at all..

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tukar channel !

the F(riday) part is almost over, here comes the double S !! *clap clap*

what is my weekend plan?

mm..not so much. a treasure hunt, doing some lab assignments, meeting lab partner. waittt, ulang balik ulang balik. treasure hunt..? yeah, you read it right. treasure hunt as in treasure hunting, yang main-main games then look for the key to unlock the location for the hidden treasure. its a part of this activity called Decalimpics (you can facebook-ing it or google-ing it kalau terasa semacam ingin tau), organized by the company itself. its basically consist of a few games, physical and mental games, where a few teams compete with each other. there are about 5 teams listed, all determine by a different color. as for my team, we are the yellow team. semangat of bersih. haha kidding. more like semangat of DiGi. our theme song is 'i will follow you...'. haha. kidding again.

soooo..back to the TH. there are 27 groups joining, each with 5 group members. i definitely didnt put any high hopes in winning, just enjoying the fun. dah lama tak peluh-peluh :). i cant remember the last time i joined TH, maybe waktu sekolah rendah dulu la kot. sooo long ago kan, so memang sangat sangat blur pasal TH ni :P. what ever it is, i do know that i will definitely be enjoying it tomorrow :)

still, i do keep my fingers crossed as to not be the last team to arrive :P

Fright Night the story

hello peeps,

salam sejahtera dah salam bahagia semuanya :). why the good mood? ooh its the fright night no less (am not!!). haha dont get your hopes high darlings, movie fright night itu adalah sangat membosankan dan terlalu cliche. boring, tapi layanlah jugak. nak buat camno, tiket dah beli, 34 hinggit lak tu (3D la kononnn kan). makanya menonton lah saya dengan jayanya, berapa kali ulang dalam panggung tu 'bila la nak abes cerita ni'. tapi tahap bosannye tu tade la sampai rasa nak gi claim balik duit ke ape ke, mungkin sebab tengah mood nak tengok movie kot, jadi layan kan je la movie pape pun. tapi for those yang memang menunggu nak melayan cerita yang berkualiti, fright night bukan lah calon terbaik untuk anda. kalau nak donlod pun tak payah. tak payah tau langsung jalan cerita pun takpa. membazir masa dan tenaga. ini mungkin kategori movie yang budak-budak tengah amek course pengarahan buat movie ni, bukan tahap hollywood langsung. tatau la cemane boleh lepas bajet nak buat ni.

*ehem, konon layan je, tapi komen cam berlebih la pulak kan*

oke, tukar cerita. on the other day, i manage to read another Syud's novel. dont ask me what the title is aa, forgot oredi. and as usual, i always end up feeling deeply disturbed (?) after finishing the novel. not la deeply disturbed, hehe. but it just got me thinking la. its not that the story is similar to me, but maybe the way she narrate it made me feel close to the story itself, semacam story kita la pulak jadinya. and her story selalunya memang suweeet sangat, takyah letak gula pun takpa *lame*. haha. but seriously, her story is sweet in their own ways. no tengku tengku vs anak dato, daniel haikal vs maria sherafina, no cinderella no orang kaya vs orang miskin. all the subjects (?), eh bukan, watak la kot lebih sesuai eh, watak dalam tu adalah orang kebanyakan. dalam erti kata lain, ehem, orang kebanyakan macam saya. so its appears as if the story is real, happens to real people, konon macam kita pun boleh jadi macam watak dia tu *smile*.

as addition, i've yet to khatam another Susan Elizabeth Phillips' novel, it had to be you. ini pun adoyai, tolong la, jangan buat novel yang terlampau manis boleh tak? tak tertahan dah jantung ni menahan rasa romantik membuak buak ni. *dush kepada diri sendiri*

The Mad Story

oh i am mad alright. menyampah. sakit hati. what ever lah.

esok kerja. wah malas !

SEP the story

without doubt, susan elizabeth phillips is truly the queen of the contemporary romance.

adeh, romantik tak hengat okeh. in one of the story, the heroin had to work as a maid for the hero, as a punishment. oh suka suka..adalah sangat romantik kan? and then, in another novel, both the main characters yang dah kawen boleh pulak main doktor-doktor *okeh ini agak adult sket*.

hati memang seronok gile je baca, rasa membuak-buak je bahagia. over, i know. haha. but do tell me, siapa yang tak suka romance yang sweet camtu *yang tak suka diam-diam sudah*. even biasanya dalam novel makcik SEP ni, biasa watak laki dan pompuan macam hensem dan gojes melampau je, tapi takpe. sebab jalan cerita yang romantik tahap tak hengat, makanya dihalalkan. kalau baca novel dia ni, memang tido termimpi-mimpi la.

i know i know, memang ada yang tak berkenan romance-romance novel ni. ada yang suka mystical, ada yang suka thriller. tapi tak kesah la, each to his/her own kan, so sila memahami ye.

and sebagai seorang yang romantik *ehem*, saya mengetengahkan the complimentary song untuk novel yang sedang dibaca ini, Kiss An Angel by Susan Elizabeth Phillips. phewitttttt !!

 

Love You Like A Love Song

It's been said and done
Every beautiful thought's been already sung
And I guess right now here's another one
So your melody will play on and on, with the best of them
You are beautiful, like a dream come alive, incredible
A centerfold miracle, lyrical
You've saved my life again
And I want you to know baby

 I, I love you like a love song, baby

 Constantly, boy you played through my mind like a symphony
 There's no way to describe what you do to me
 You just do to me, what you do
 And it feels like I've been rescued
 I've been set free
 I am hypnotized by your destiny
 You are magical, lyrical, beautiful
 You are... And I want you to know baby
 

The Foremost Story

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Agung lagi Maha Pemurah,

It is the 16th of September, in the year of 2011. Figured it is kind of nice date to start writing, doesnt it?