backdated post: the update story

'zaman berubah, manusia pun berubah'

-iklan-

setelah hamir setahun bekerja, saya kini telah dinaikkan pangkat atau lebih tepat lagi

ditambah bebanan kerja tanpa kenaikan gaji. takpelah, orang kata new responsibily kan,

yang penting kita dapat belajar. gaji tak penting. kata orang, kata saya tak !!

berbalik kepada cerita, setelah naik nye jawatan itu, maka secara langsung nye jadual kerja

mula berubah. kalau dulu masuk kerja pukul 4pagi sampai 1tengahari, sekarang 6petang

sampai 3pagi. duh. jangan ditanya macam mana saya manage, sekarang baru minggu pertama.

kita tunggu report minggu akan datang.

maka sekarang, my internal body clock tengah menyesuaikan diri dengan jadual baru ini.

its not bad, balik kul 3, tido kul 4, then bangun 12tengahari. seronok !! tapi tidak elok

untuk kesihatan, apatah lagi umur sekarang menjangkau dari awal 20an ke lewat 20an.

tido banyak, makan tak menentu, eksesais nye tidak. tak bagus tak bagus.

dan sekarang, ada lagi setengah jam nak balik. lepas lepas pukul 12, biasa takde kerja.

waktu ni la terasa bersalah nye makan gaji buta *menipu*. waktu nak bukak fesbuk, nak

bukak novel pun rasa lain je. macam serba salah, macam ada yang pantau je. nak buat kerja,

kerja tade, cemane tu? *ehem, sebenarnye kerja ada je, tapi bukan kerja major pun, lebih

kepada follow up, jadi macam biasa kita kategorikan sebagai KIV*.

dan hujung minggu ni ada test. macam mana ni kawan-kawan? saya sangat lah tidak ready.

letih sambung belajar master ni. amek 2 subjects je, lecturer jenis yang senang kawtim

lak tu, tapi still tak dapat nak follow. macam bodoh rasanya. ke manakah menghilangnya

diriku yang pandai meng-adapt dulu? ini semua yang belajar macam mengalir keluar, test

quiz assignment semua hancuss. macam mana...

lagu tema: stupid in love (versi ne-yo yang best)

Let me tell you something

Never have I ever been a size ten in my whole life

I let the engine running

I just came to see

What you would do if I gave you a chance to make things right

So made it, even though Katy told me that this will be nothing but

A waste of time

And she was right

Don’t understand it but on your hands is still you insist on repeatedly trying to tell me lies

And I just don’t know why

This is stupid

I'm not stupid

Don’t talk to me

Like I'm stupid

I still love you but

I just can't do this

I maybe dumb but

I'm not stupid

My new nickname is you idiot (such an idiot)

That’s what my friends are calling me

When they see me I lean'n to my phone

They're telling me let go

He is not the one

I thought I saw your potential

I guess that’s what made me dumb

He don’t want it.

Not like you want it

Scheming and cheating

Oh girl why do you waste your time

You know he aint right

They're telling me this

I don’t wanna listen but you insist on repeatedly trying to tell me lies

And I just don’t know why

This is stupid

I'm not stupid

Don’t talk to me

Like I'm stupid

I still love you but

I just can't do this

I maybe dumb but

I'm not stupid

Trying to make this work

But you act like good jerk

Silly of me to keep holding on

But the dust can't resolve

You don’t know what you've lost

And you won't realize till

I'm gone, gone, gone

That I was the one

Which one of us is really dumb

I'm maybe dumb but I'm not stupid in love

**i am not dumb, and i dont want to be stupid in class**