the mellow story

if there is one word to describe me, i would choose MALAS.

only one word is enough to desribe me. all the time, i am sooo malas.

malas nak bangun awal, malas nak kerja, malas nak buat assignment.

kalau hari cuti duk sorang kat umah, lagi la menjadi jadi perangai malas tu.

dulu pernah belajar Maslow pyramid ape tah, yang explain pasal the things that made us wake up in the morning. dont ask me what is what, i surely didnt remember. tanya incik google please. normally, I wouldnt know what motivate me to wake up in the morning, except for kerja dan class. and shopping or jalan-ing with friends.

but, kalau ada lagi yang bertanya, what would would best describe me at this particular time, i wouldnt know what. there is no exact word for this. mellow? romantic? content? thinker? this particular time would be midnite. 1.40 am to be exact. listening to fly fm. tetiba terdengar lagu yang membuatkan saya..terharu? mengeluh? berfikir? bukan, saya bukan mengeluh pasal kehidupan. bukan tidak berpuas hati. tapi terkadang, bila malam semacam ini, dengar pulak lagu yang membuai perasaan, something inside you shift. you are like missing something but you are not sure what. you are like sighing, mellowed over things that you dont know what is it.

at times like this, everything else seems dont matter.

lab report tak siap? tak kesah.

duit gaji tak cukup sampai ujung bulan? so what?

adik adik buat perangai lawan makayah? lantak korang la.

esok kena hantar proposal kat client? kene follow up ngan user? kene complete online form? malas nak kalut kalut.

the only thing that would matter now, that usually come to mind on this particular time is:

apakah sebenarnye tujuan hidup? apakah yang sebenarnya perlu aku buat hari hari, untuk mengisi kekosongan hati?

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now, does this got you thinking as well..?