The bits and pieces story - draft 6/11/13

I am writing this down, so that i wont forget. 

A month before wedding, all hell broke lose. All things went down. Kereta rosak. Ayah sakit. Kena bayar duit sebab admin salah kira gaji. Kerja banyak bertimbun-timbun. 

A few days before wedding. Things started to calm down. But not until the wedding nite, when things started to stir again. Adik-adik bergaduh. Pinggan mangkuk piled up in the kitchen sebab malam tu orang sembahyang hajat. My bestfriend was being so 'shy' and tak salam makcik-makcik time orang solat dan yours truly pulak kecik hati. And no one was going to do my inai that nite. It was when i lose patience and broke down in tears. 

Pagi hari nikah. It was raining the nite before. Woke up, ironed tudung and all. I feel so calm. I even style up Mak and Adik. Sampai masjid, rasa tenang je. Udara sejuk. Sebelum akad, kadi bagi tazkirah dulu. Kekeke. Panjang pulak tu. Kesian Imam kena dengar, tapi bagus la, ye dok? Yours truly kat belakang sibuk duk amek gambar. Kejap orang ni datang snap, orang tu datang snap. Bila selesai diakadkan, hujan yang tadi berhenti mula turun renyai-renyai. Feels like such a blessing. 

Dah sah. Salam cium tangan. Photographer suruh cium dahi. Mula macam segan. We read somewhere that it was not nice ke cemane tah nak cium dahi depan orang. Tapi pikir balik ape salahnya, dahi je pun. Plus its kinda sweet. So cium dahi it was, and it was very sweet indeed. 

Afterwards, it was majlis makan-makan. Penat dan sakit kaki. Hihi. 

Alhamdulillah~

The one of those days story

Its one of those days. 

Yang memenatkan. 

Penat mengajar. Masuk kelas, jerit-jerit bagi arahan kat 30++ pelajar lelaki. Jerit 10 kali pun tak jadi ape. Kalau tak jerit lagi la tak bergerak langsung. 

Penat meeting. Tak berkesudahan. Tiba-tiba kena masuk meeting. Dapat tugas, kena buat itu, kena buat ini. Alahai bos. Tugas sampingan lagi banyak daripada tugas hakiki ni haaa. Macamana nak fokus kat pelajar kalau program dah bermacam-macam nak kena buat ni? Kesian pelajar. Penat mengajar penat jugak, tapi tanggungjawab mengajar tu takkan nak ambil sambil lewa sebab sibuk dengan tugas lain. 

Balik rumah. 

Penat perasaan. Penat. Memang penat. 

Penat nak jaga hati orang. Hati kita siapa nak jaga? 

Penat jaga hubungan sesama manusia. Tapi orang lain tak jaga pun hubungan dengan kita?

Its one of those days, that make me feel like i want to close my eyes and drifted off to a longgg sleep, not thinking of anything. And when i wake up, the world would be a better place. 

The dugaan story

Berat. 

Dugaan memang terasa berat. 

I dont understand what is happening, is it a blessing or a curse. 

Tapi memang terasa berat. Sangat. 

Saya anggap, ini adalah dugaan. Bebanan perasaan. 

Bagi orang lain, mungkin ini masalah kecil sahaja. Tapi bagi saya, ianya amat berat. 

Berterus-terusan istighfar. 

Mungkin ada yang cakap, poyo je la kau ni. Dugaan dugaan. Orang lain masalah lagi besar dari kaulah. 

Itu orang lain. Ini saya sendiri. Sedang mencari kekuatan. 

The anger story

Talk about being angry. 

The what did i do story

Salam and hi :)

So what did i do today?

I just feel so bored that i want to tell others what have i done today. Bear with me if you will, or you can just skip the post altogether and go read your manga. Hihi. 

I woke up early. Had gone to bed at 9p last night. Woke up at 5am, god knows how hard i tried to wake myself up and had sahur. I didnt went back to sleep later. Thats the 1st. 

Its the 17th day of ramadhan. Its the nuzul quran day, which falls on friday nonetheless. I punch in early, too early, but went to withdraw cash and went back to office, and it was just around 740 in the morning. Still very early. 

Had morning prayer. Went to meeting. Then had a good time shopping at jusco during the afternoon break. 

Continue doing work. Punch out at 5. Went to PD at 6. Went out for iftar. Awesome meal. 

And here i am. Writing away all those mundane things. 

The one true L story

When it is right, it just happen. 

You dont need a fancy smancy proposal.

Dont need flowers or romantic words. 

When it happens, it happens. 

The one of those moments story

"You're beautiful"

"Even in this light?" 

"Especially in this light"

Melting. 

The post pru story

Draft. 5/5/13.

Dia. Seorang pemimpin. Kerana dia memimpin, maka dia tidak perlu beratur untuk membuang undi.

Dia. Juga seorang pemimpin. Tapi tanpa segan beratur bersama rakyat untuk membuang undi.

Ramai yang cakap penat beratur panjang. Bawah panas terik. Pemimpin berjiwa rakyat bukankah patut turut sama bersusah payah berpanas berhujan?

Just a piece of my mind.

The black heart story

Hati ni kadang jahat. 

Tengok instagram, rasa nak mengata orang. 

Bukak facebook, pun menyampah tengok post orang. 

Bukak twitter, pun benci baca tweet orang. 

Orang semuanya salah. Semua tak betul. Hati ni makin lama makin gelap, sebab duk mengata je kerjanya. 

Tengok orang letak gamba anak, kata dia perasan anak comel padahal tak pun.

Orang post i love you kat suami, kita meluat, macam la dia sorang ada laki. 

Orang tunjuk kereta baru, kita mengata dia tu riak, taksub dengan kekayaan dunia. 

Habis tu kita? Tak putus putus cakap orang serba tak kena, macamana? 

The follow your heart story

Ikutkan hati, nak je

- amek videographer 

- amek the best photographer

- beli baju banyak banyak

- beli shawl banyak banyak

- beli those handbags

- beli oven untuk bake cakes

- berjalan jalan melancong lancong bersama kawan kawan

Tapi apakan daya, ikutkan hati memang nak semua. Tapi tak boleh, keadaan poket tak mengizinkan. Plus, tak elok jugak berlebih lebih ni. 

The mother's day story

Am missing my mother so damn much. Given a time, i would like to tell her how much i love her, that i appreciate all the things that she had done for me and i am sorry if i ever broke her heart or make her feel sad even a little.

We are not the type who express our feelings so openly. So it is just so hard for me to say those things to her. Well, maybe i could on mother's day.

Thank god for mother's day.

the monogram story

am doing monogram for my W day.

 the first one. whatchu think?

the second one. whatchu think?

The lecturer story

One of the 'downside' of being a lecturer is sometimes, you have to study in detail about the subject that you are going to teach in class. The difference is, you have to study and understand everything in order to avoid being embarrased in front of the class when you cant answer student's question. Futhermore, you simply cannot teach them ilmu sesat can you? Hence study a to z, prepare all the questions that probably will be asked and pray that you are teaching the right thing.

the outdated story

i believe i am one of those people who always being oblivious about the latest trending/meme/videos or anything viral.

for one, i didnt know what is Gangnam Style until i heard the parody Kampung Style by FlyFm. Safe to say, i know about Kampung Style before i am aware of Gangnam Style.

then, i seriously gets confuse when people talk about Harlem Shake. what is that? all i think about was coconut shake. couldnt be related right?

then there was listen listen listen. first time i saw it when my friend posted a picture in fb saying 'even ikan jaws has problem'. what, do they think its funny? - was what i said. then someone told me about listen listen listen and the story behind it.

then came 'ini kalilah'. saw it in twitter, and i didnt understand. then mr bugis use the same phrase and i got confuse. being the updated one that he is, he explained to me then i went 'oooo so that was what its about'. lol.

and now the latest one (i think) is gwiyomi. seriously, what is that? i only know about it when my friend posted in fb saying that she is getting sick of all the vidoes and posts regarding gwiyomi, and here i am reading my first ever gwiyomi post T_T.

thanks to mr google, he tells me everything. very reliable, but not really important as i only knows bout those thing when its already been too much. well, its okay ii guess since its not like im going to do my own gwiyomi post :P

people use to say ignorance is a bliss.

the running man story

I know I am in trouble when I started google-ing Running Man cast.

Seriously, it is such a funny show. Who did i googled first? Song Ji Hyo. Comellll.

Then later, Kang Gary. Huahhhh comel jugakkkk !! *insert teen hysterical shriek here*

Okay, fine. I know I am like all those thousands fans who watch Running Man and falls in love with the show. I slept at 2am now, and woke up at 630 everyday. This is sooo rare for me nowadays.

LeeSsang Gary fan, me me me !!

the PJJ story

Dalam hati, membuak buak rasa tanak duk jauh. Saya di Melaka. Dia di KL. Bila dah kawen nanti, kemungkinan besar kami PJJ. Serius, saya tanak.

Tapi entah mengapa, saya macam akur pada aturan kerja. Kerja sekarang sangat stabil, suma cakap rugi kalo let go. Saya biasanya tidak tunduk pada keadaan, if i want something, i will bend everything to make it happen. But maybe not this time.

Terkadang berpikir, mungkin saya terlalu mengikut perasaan. Ramai je yang kawen tapi PJJ. Yang wife askar tu lagi la, dah la risau suami pergi bersabung nyawa. But then again, its someone else. Its not me.

Ada juga yang cakap, sabar la, nanti sampai masanya untuk duduk berdua. Tapi bila?

Susah nak terangkan apa ada dalam hati. And it seems like he also didnt fully approve about my planning.

It seems that my heart rules over my head.

The new house story

Salam and hi,

This is the second week i moved into a new house. My younger sister came last week, stayed at my uncle's in KL before coming down here with me yesterday. She helped me packed and moved what is left of my things from the old house into this one. All has been moved and i have kemas them a bit.

Its already past 1am and couldnt go to sleep. Maybe i am too tired with all the moving, or maybe because i had too much sleep earlier during the day. Lucky my workplace is only 30seconds away from my home, with car. Yes, you read it right. Only 30seconds away. And i'm using car still? Very not economical and not environmental friendly. I am just simply malas like that. Hahaha.

This is just a late night blabbering. I read the third book of Game of Throne just now, and i kinda forget what had happen in the story and how. The series version is a bit different, but still the outcome of the story is still the same so it doesnt bother me much. But sometimes i get confuse and couldnt differentiate between novels and series's one.

Till then. So much going on in my head.

Nighty night, sleep tight.

The Hipocrite Story

Salam and hi :)

i am now working in a company that depends on lotsa documentation and lotsa hassle before we can do something. there are finances forms, leave forms, all kind of unimportant forms (i think, but why do they need it if its not important, no?). in my previous company, i didnt have to fill in much forms. everything was done online, and free of hassle.

so when i first join this company, i kind of expect that i will have to deal with a lot of manual written forms, but not this much ! and being forgetful and oblivious of surrounding that i am, as i went for induction course last week, i didnt fill in any kind of form. just imagine, there are about three types of forms that i have to fill and ask for kelulusan  from bosses first before going there, but i fill in none. that was sooo wrong actually, and when i come back i came up to see my bosses and tell me nicely how sorry i am and that i would not repeat the same thing again. there are 3 level of bosses here, Boss 1, Boss 2 and Boss 3. let say Boss 1 is the top boss here. i have met with Boss 2 and Boss 3, but Boss 1 is away for this week so i haven't got a chance to see him. as it turns out, Boss 2 and Boss 3 was okay. as i fill in all the forms even though its backdated, i mentally prepared myself for the potpet of Boss 1 because i know, it was solely my mistake.

in one part of one of the form, i had to see the finance lady to ask her about the finance part. note here that the form will be fully diluluskan by Boss 1. if Boss said yes, than the other process will follow by the finance part or documentation part or any other part that related. if no, then what to do, i has to accept it la. but before that i had to fill in the form correctly la, and how to fill it correctly if i didnt ask the right person, right? so when i see the finance lady, i didnt asked for her to sign her name in my form or to do anything with the form, i only asked about what should i write in in here and here. but as soon as she see the form and knew that i had only fill it after i had went to the course, she nagged at me. yes, nagged. you shouldnt do this you shouldnt do that, do you know the bla bla bla, this is wrong this is bla bla bla. i was dumbstruck. hello, i did know that it was wrong, and i had faced it up with Boss 2 and Boss 3 but they didnt say much. tak marah pun, cuma nasihat je. ini tak, orang lain pulak lebih lebih. the thing is, its not related to her much pun, Boss 1 hasnt said anything yet, its up to him la to get angry with me, not her. ini tak pasal pasal dia lak yang marah marah. you know what was in my mind at that time?

aikk dah kenape. dah tak paham. chill la lady, orang tanya je kena isi apa, yang nak marah kenapa.

lucky she didnt do it infront of people. in my opinion, i came to see her only to ask, and i had known that it was a mistake, and i didnt ask for her to cover for me or what. once Boss 1 signed my form, then only she will documented it, and takde effect kerja dia pun because that thing can be done in 1 month time, and memang kena buat after i went back from kursus.

maybe she was in bad mood when i saw her, but thats no excuse. i did asked nicely, i addressed her correctly, but still i think she could actually talk nicely instead of marah marah. 

and today, when i came to see her again, i change my tactic. i wore a scarf that is more modest than my usual scarf, and i style it so that it look like a wide scarf. oh i forgot to mention, this finance lady wear a wide scarf and look alim la, so i had to show the modest side of me la if i want her to be nice to me, aight? so later, i went up to see her and showed her the forms and all, apologizing again and talk in extra sopan words. and alhamdulillah, she didnt potpet at me no more and explain to me back with a sopan words. my tactic works, huh? hehehe.

so what do you say? am i being a hypocrite or was it just a clever tactic?

p/s: people said that the finance lady is a bit on the antisocial side. she doesnt have friends in the office, nor did she joined any of the event in our company.

p/s: she wears wide scarf, but still her nail is sooo long. all the fingernails. isnt it wrong? i try not to be judgemental, but still im wondering.

 

the brown-eyed story

Salam and hi,

in my company, there is one guy who is a technician here and is a heavy smoker. there is something about a heavy smoker, you could actually see it in them. they have this 'cloudy' appearance, muka nampak tak berseri, dull complexion and bla bla bla. looking at their lips tu dah normal sangat. yet there is something that i just noticed today about them.

today, i had something to ask the technician guy so i went up to see him, and this is actually the first time i talked to him face to face. during the conversation, there is something very peculiar about his eyes and i notice it was the color of his iris. it was soft brown, very nice indeed. emmm i didnt actually stare him directly in the eye la, nanti zina mata nanti. hehe. but i did catch a few glimpse and it was when i noticed the eyes. 

and after that, while walking back to my office, i came to realized that most of the heavy smoker that i met, have soft brown eyes. im not sure if it is due to their dull complexion that their eyes appear brown-er than usual (ada kaitan ke?!) . but come to think of it, its true that most of the guys that is a heavy smoker and have the air of heavy smoker around them have soft brown eyes.

does smoking make your iris go brown?

do anyone notice it the same as i do?

p/s: this is only for asian guys lah, kalo caucasian ke arabian ke dah sah sah mata dorang berkaler kaler :P

The birthday tree story

Salam and hi,

dua entry dalam satu hari. bosan punya pasal. ini pun hasil copy paste dari tenet jugak.
this is about birthday tree. and i just copy the one that suits me, meaning copy yang mana kitanya birthday je la. and mr bugis's of course.

Me: Oct 12
Maple Tree (Independence of Mind)
no ordinary person,
full of imagination and originality,
shy and reserved,
ambitious,
proud,
self-confident,
hungers for new experiences,
sometimes nervous,
has many complexities,
good memory,
learns easily,
complicated love life,
wants to impress.

comment: err i would say maybe 90% true. self confident? complicated love life? haha. well, i guess i am no ordinary person, no?

Mr Bugis: Nov 28
Ash Tree (Ambition)
extremely attractive,
vivacious,
impulsive,
demanding,
does not care for criticism,
ambitious,
intelligent,
talented,
likes to play with fate,
can be very egotistic,
reliable,
restless lover,
sometimes money rules over the heart,
demands attention,
needs love and much emotional support.

comment: restless lover? cemane tu? kekasih yang tidak penah berehat? kekeke

p/s: hari ni nak makan pizza. and malas nak pack barang and angkut pindah.

the what is the perfect title for this post story

Salam and hi,

just sharing something that i found on FB, and thought i could share,

Semoga boleh diamalkan nanti :)

  

The pindah story

I am moving into another house again, the 3rd house in 5 months. And this time, i angkut all the things myself. Well, not everything since i havent finish packing and moving. Sorang2 angkut penat weh, kena la 2 3 round. There are still a lot to be moved later.

2 round for today. Another 2 tomorrow. Dont need to jog no more.

P/s: bilik lebih kecik dari yg sebelumnya. And lebih panas.

The induction story

I will be away to JB starting tomorrow until Saturday, for an induction courses. Kursus induksi, kalo dalam bahasa melayunya. Haha.

So many people hate kursus, including me no less. There will be public speaking and debate at the course, which make me hate it even more.

Pray for me peeps.

The blood and water story

As we grew older, we grew apart. It just so hard being the eldest sometimes. If there is a manual, i would gladly bought one. Where did i do wrong, dear adik adik?

The bag story

Salam and hi :)

Someone got me this bag. Ohhh its super nice, and me love it sooo much. And its actually two shades darker than Petronas' green, but it seems blue in the picture due to the lighting. Thanks, Mr Bugis.

The Lump Story v2

Salam and hi :)

in my previous post, i've wrote that i had a lump in my throat and had undergone a test to determine if the lump is cancerous or not. the result was out last Friday, and Alhamdulillah indeed, the tissue is not cancerous :)

there will be a follow up test this July, to check on the lump again. i know there are a lot of people out there whose having goiter like me, and it turns out to be harmless. this is like a warning bell for us, to remind us to be thankful and to remember our responsibilities as a khalifah.

The Bagan Lalang story

Salam and hi 😊

Went out for a seafood galore at Bagan Lalang today. My friend A and i was actually lepaking at Alamanda window-shopping, but suddently we got no more shops to browse into. When out from Alamanda, then i didnt remember who's crazy idea it was but we ended up driving to BL. We had never been there, but thanks to Google Maps we finally reach BL lost-free. Apple Maps and Waze were unreliable. We had to depends on Google Maps in Safari, and the road signs along the way. Alhamdulillah, it made it alive and easy. Hehe.

Well, what do i got to say about BL's seafood? It was just like any other seafood place. Nothing special. Since it was weekend and the place is sooo famous for its seafood, there were already quite a queue there by the time we reach the place. Since the table was limited and it was raining, we had to wait to be seated. If you are super hungry then i would not recommend this place to you. The waiters were polite enough, the drinks was so so and the seafood was also so so. The price was within normal range, not too cheap and not expensive either. You could actually find quite a similar seafood restaurant anywhere in KL, no need to drive all the way to Sepang and waiting for table.

But still, i did enjoy the food and my time there. At the end, all that matters is a full tummy and a happy face.

The lump story

Salam and hi :)

I have been living with a lump in my throat for the last 10 years or so. Its not really visible, even i didnt noticed it myself when i look in the mirror. The 1st person who noticed it was my mom, and after health inspection in form 3 i was reffered to hospital for further checkup. They took my blood sample to check for thyroidism and the result was cleared, my hormones level is within range.

Until last october, when i did my checkup for my latest job, the doctor noticed the lump and once again i was referred to the hospital. The result was okay again this time, but they did a physical checkup on me and the young doctor diagnosed that i have a goiter thyroid. In simple terms, it means that i have unexplainable grown tissue in my throat, near the thyroid gland, but the gland is fuctioning normally. But they were yet to determine if the growth is cancerous or is it just malignant only, meaning that its harmless. They took tissue samples last tuesday, and tomorrow the test result will be out.

Am i freaking out? I guess i am not. But sometimes i think its nice to know that i am only a fragile human, not a superhuman so that people dont take me for granted.

Love me when im here, dont cry over me when i am not.

the firewall story

Draft - end of February 2013

Salam :)

ohh bad news. office sekarang dah ada firewall. dah tak boleh nak access 9gag dah. youtube pun tak boleh. seriously?! 9gag?

Kenapa ada conteng conteng tu? well for privacy of course. and since yours dearie tak reti nk pakai pic editor, maka guna paint ajew nak coverkan benda alah konon private tu. kekeke.

the kurus story

Salam and hi :)

after further reading, i noticed that my previous post has a few errors. but then i am too lazy to correct it so i just leave it as it is for now.

moving on. while having lunch just now with a few colleagues and boss, we had stumble upon one hot topic. a petua to lose weight. wuhuuu. very the hot indeed, as my boss had tried it for 2 or 5 weeks for now (my ear is a bit on the pekak side so i cant hear properly if its 'dua' or 'lima' and she was soooo excited telling about her weight loss that i found it improper to menyampuk) and the result is noticed by others.

and what is the petua you might ask? well the ingredient is easy enough:

ginger - halia

fennel - jintan manis

water

the amount of all ingredients is a bit unconvincing. here is what my boss told me.

a block of ginger. (im not sure how big is a block. on the safe side, i think it could be 4 inches or 10cm in size)

a handful of fennel. (again, how could you determine a handful? a scoop? a closed-fist handful? an open-fist handful?)

500ml or water. or maybe you could try 1 liter of water, depending on the thickness of the liquid.

and how do you made it?

just cut the ginger in small pieces. do julienne style of whatever that fits, combine all ingredients all together and just put it on stove and let it to boil.

drink it once in the morning and once in the evening. you can drink as much as you like, i think. hehe. and the magic potion can be stored in fridge, but not sure for how long. maybe until it gets smelly.

i do googled the petua just to convince myself, and this is what i found:

http://mizzhanna85.blogspot.sg/2009/09/saya-dah-tembam-sangat.html

http://la-abwa.blogspot.sg/2006/04/jintan-manis-kempiskan-perut.html

 both of these are far more promising than what i heard. hehehe.

so come on, lets try these ! doesnt seems so bad is it?

p/s: my boss said she didnt seems to be farting or pooping a lot after drinking the potion, but she seems to be kenyang all the time. depends on each person i guess. lain badan lain penerimaan.

The wedding preparation story part II

Salam and hi :)

The big day is going to be in another 8 months. And i am sooo freaking out. Tak buat ape lagiiii. Risau betul tapi tak start buat satu ape pun. Adoyaiiii. Boleh tak upah orang tolong siapkan?

The salam and bye story

Salam and hi :)

Well i just read that we as a muslim cannot use bye as it means something bad and it was a trick by the jews for us muslim. Salam also have a bad meaning, i cant remember what the meaning is. Is it true? Bye is used globally, do jewish people really use it to get us muslim be blinded and saying nasty things to each other? Do they really think and plan that far? And as for salam, overall we have known that Assalamu'alaikum means 'peace be upon you' or 'selamat sejahtera ke atas kamu'. When people say Assalamu'alaikum, it means that we are praying for others. And as for me, when i just write down salam instead of full word Assalamu'alaikum, i mean it as how Assalamu'alaikum means. And there are people named Salam, so does it really have bad meaning?

I didnt mean to provoke others, it just a thought that cross my mind. Im not someone who like to comment on sensitive things, but for me as long as when i said Salam and bye it means that i wish them good, then its good enough for me. And better ask ustaz la for this kindof things. Dont simply create your own fatwa and what not. Dont simply believe anything you read on internet, it is full of crap. People nowadays loves to made up thing, causing chaos everywhere. Seriously, what do they get from that?

I am sorry if i am wrong, it just that you have to give me a valid reason la before copy pasting all those what-to-do and what-not-to-do. Peace, no offence.

the shawl's obsession story

Salam :)

happy women's day y'all !!

so how do you treat yourself or women whom are dear to you on this special day?

me? ohh i've been treating maself with buying lotsa scarf/shawls this month, so i guess thats it la kot. hehe. like seriously, i've bought 4 or 5 shawls kot this month, all by online shop. it was like i've been possessed by the shawl spirit. rambang mata bila tengok all the shawls. bahaya betul la online shopping ni, the one thing that can stop you is by not having any money in your bank. betul !

for now i've bought shawls from Shawlbyvsnow, Scarfla, Scarffey and Wonder Wardrobe.  havent got the chance to wear Scarffey's and WW's yet. see, dah beli tapi tak pakai. lagi. sedikit pembaziran di situ T_T. if you were to buy online shawls, i highly recommend them la. sangat tak fussy. and sangat boleh dipercayai. for Shawlbyvsnow, better if you surf directly on their page to buy, the other 3 i just follow by instagram coz they will update their latest product on instag. my friend recommend jugak l'adorn, and i got my eyes set on Nong Talhah shawl's on instag, but i had to contain maself from buying their shawl for now due to my overspending this month. 4 or 5 shalws per month is more than enough kot. dont wanna be like imelda marcos ;). please google their name if you are interested, sorry i didnt provide link kat sini coz i am malas like that. kekeke.

thats all for now. have a great weekend y'all !

The singapore trip story

Salam and hi !

Last week me and mr bugis went to singapore for a reallly short trip. My parents and my lil sister were already there since Thursday. Sooo many things to ramble on, but i just dont know where to start. Maybe i'll start with our picture together? Nahhh. Maybe later la kott.

Ohh yeah. Talking about picture, i had captured a pic of one drink that is superrrr nice that everytime i look at the picture my my saliva is literally dripping.

Here goes~

The being good story

Draft : 26th Feb '13

All my life, i always think that i am a good person. Selalu ikut cakap mak ayah. Avoid cakap kasar ngan mak ayah, and it is the hardest thing to do. Dulu kecik2, selalu bilang setiap hari bape kali kena marah ngan mak, and the next day i will do my bes untuk tak dimarahi lagi dah. When i talk to people pun i will avoid using harsh words. Menyumpah, jarang sekali. I do said bodoh or bangang once or twice, but that was all about it. Kadang hati tersentak bila dengar orang cakap kasar because i am not used to it. And i always pride myself for that. Orang kata, dalam hidup ni kita kena jaga hubungan dengan Allah, dengan alam dan sesama umat. And that is what ive been trying to do. I dont want people to hate me or terasa with words that i said.

Tonite, it downs on me that i am not good as i thought. I still talked about people. Masih mengumpat mengadu domba membawa cerita buruk. I do said 'shit' when i drive or something bad happen. Its actually a worst kind of feeling, knowing that u are a bad person.

And sometimes, orang tak paham. When i use different words to convey the meaning of a sentence to avoid the other person of being hurt, i am labelled as bermulut manis. Pandai putar belit. Oh gosh. All i think was tanak dia terasa, i think i am doing a good thing, but apparently thats not how the other person feel.

People dont understand. I am really not a bad person. My yearly resolution is to be nice to people. To not talking bad about others. And on my birthdays, i told myself to be more honest and be more good. But now i
felt like i am going nowhere. Like i am no good at all. Like all my thoughts are filthy, dishonest. My words are all twisty. That is bad. Am i really bad?

the 'segalanya di hujung jari' story

Salam :)

the internet connection is a bit crazeeee at the office right now since yesterday, and i cant even get into Maybank2u. My salary was in on Monday means yesterday, but i cannot do any online banking due to limited connectivity. last night i had to drive into town, been queuing at a few banks to do my transaction and it was very the hassle. before this i only had to click click click and everything being paid. just imagine, i am now a government employee, and most people are as well including 'abang' askar 'abang' polis makcik kerani so there were quite a queue la at the bank last night. and still today the connection was not very good as well and it is soooo driving me nuts.

life is sooo empty without internet connection. sigh.

the loft story

Salam :)

when people asked me what is my dream house, i dont know how to explain to them. well actually, takde yang tanya pun, just that rasa nak describe dream house kat orang then tak reti tak describe cemane so end up tak cerita pun kat orang. haha. okay, dream house. my dream house would be a house with many glasses.  not the luxury-looking one, more like a compact house with ceiling to floor glasses. couldnt imagine it? well have you seen Gossip Girl or New Girl? both series were based in Manhattan, NY. dalam GG, cuba tengok rumah yang Dan Humprey duduk tu. that is a loft. sama jugak macam NG, rumah yang dorang duduk tu lebih kurang macam loft jugak. ada satu scene, episode 24 in season 1, that they showed Jess's bedroom. omaigadddd comel nye ada tingkap macam tuuu. kebanyakan kalo tengok hollywood movies yang kat NY, mostly umah dorang mesti bentuk loft camtu. and that is, ladies and gentlemen, my dream house. paling best sebab tingkap dia tu best. kekeke.

Nampak tak the floor to ceiling glass??

credit: Mr Google

tapi kat malaysia ni, mungkin tak practical ada umah camni. you think? humm. if i am to design one pun, i gotta have lotsa money la to build one complete with all the safety system as a precaution.

The wedding preparation story

Salam,

I havent started any of the actual wedding preparation yet, except for googling this and that but suddenly i feel depress and malas and kusut.

And ohh, what was my theme color again? Lupa. Can someone please manage all the things for me?

the trip to the dentist story

Salam :)

i have had this gigi berlubang since i was in Standard 5,  i think. seriously. it doesnt hurt, thats why i never once go to the dentist before. Never. Once. ohh wait. ada sekali aritu. hehehe.

well my gigi berlubang started when i was in Standard 5. tatau la macamana Standard 5 and 6 aritu boleh lepas pemeriksaan tahunan doktor gigi yang tiap tiap tahun datang sekolah tu. when i was in sekolah menengah lagi la, there was no doctor at all. and since it didnt hurt, i didnt go to any dentist la. scary woooo nak gi dentist ni, with the drill and what not. i am not a penakut person mind you, but i really do afraid of dentist. i dont mind having stitches ke broken arm ke, but to lie down while dentist poke your gums teeth whatsoever? no, thank you.

then when i was doing my diploma, i had to bring my brother to dentist in klinik kerajaan. at that time i thought, while waiting for him, might as well i pun get myself a checkup, no? so off i went into the dentist clinic. honestly, i forgot how did it went. was there any pain? humm, i dont remember. it was all blurry. maybe it went horribly wrong thats why my brain blocked the memory to avoid the painful scene. haha. but the thing is, they did tampal my gigi, but the 'cement' came off weeks later. i called it cement, because thats what my parents and oldies called it. haha. i forgot the correct name for the thing but it is something that start with 'c' jugak, no?

later on, when my one and only attempt to fix the hole-ness in my gigi went down, never did i went to the dentist again. until about 2 months back, i had another cavity in the left side of my mouth. lets call this Cavity 2. Cavity 1 was at the top right. focus on the 'was' people. hehe. so what happen was, i had Cavity 2, and within 2 months it had turns into a bigggg hole which will capture ALL food that i ate. everything got stuck in that, and it has been my routine to 'clean' it up after every meal. this Cavity 2 didnt cause me pain as well. but it does effect my daily life. and Cavity 1 has been given me 'sengal sengal' feeling lately. alaa rasa sengal yang macam gigi nak tercabut tu? haa camtu la rasa. so last night, i just made up my mind to pay another visit to the dentist to fix the cavities.

so this morning, off i went to the klinik pergigian. it was still early, around 8.10, and i was the 1st one there. when the nurse called me, i didnt feel nervous at all. i just went into the clinic, answer all question that the dentist asked, do things that nurse asked me to do (close eyes, open eyes, hold this, hold that, etc), then voila, finish ! there was no pain at all. hebattt.

but the dentist only fix Cavity 1 only, i had to come back for Cavity 2. its okay, its not horror anymore, and it takes less than 1 hour of waiting and fixing so no biggie. hehe.

and now my Cavity 1 has been fixed, hope this cement will last and the food will taste extra nice. hehe.

p/s: it still feel a bit sengal when i touch it. will it heal? for good?

the terasa and 2013 cny story

nak terasa ke? humm. tak payah la. tak terasa pun. salah sendiri, sape suh balik lambat. orang busy. lain kali jangan ajak dah.

salam :)

today is wednesday. okay, sejujurnya boleh lupa macamana nak eja wednesday. seb baik tak sempat google, ingat kat kalendar tulis 'wed' so sambung jadi wednesday. hehe. seriously, wednesday is spelled wed-nesday? patut nanti kawen on wednesday, baru la wed-ding nama nya. wednesday wedding. a wednesday theme wedding. hehehe.

okay berbalik kepada persoalan. today is wednesday, semalam dan kemarin cuti cny. weehuuu. cuti tak balik kampung. amazinggg aint it? well, takde duit, tak boleh nak balik T_T. lain kali aja, nak sedih pun tade guna.

student cuti, maka saya hanya di office mendonlod movie dan mem-browsing. much fun.

The Friend Story

Salam

Hey there friend. You know, i got bored tonite, just finished my drama marathon the other night, and suddenly i found myself watching Secret Garden. Do you remember the Korean series? The one that you recommended to me, and the one that got both of us to stay up late and becoming zombie at work.

Dear friend,

Our friendship, is one of a kind. Sometime i think its similar to being in a love relationship. I could still remember the 1^st time you talked to me, up to the point that i remember the cute top you were wearing. I was the newbie then, only started work for about a month or so. Our department was next to each other, and at the time i was buddying with J. You came up to us, and then you said hi to me. I never told you this, but i thought you were married back then. Hahaha. Hilarious, i know. Why did i think that? Simply because at that time J asked you about the baby. Me being in the new work surrounding, simpy thought that because i coudnt really tell the difference between married and unmarried person at the moment. So, despite that your petite-ness, when i heard you were talking about baby, i just straight away thought that you’re married. Little did i know that you and J were referring to your niece back then. 

From then on, we started to get to know each other. I remember everything clearly, you asking me about my hometown, asking for my phone number which i sheepishly gave out (don’t ask me why, told you it feels as if we were like getting to know each other in a romantic way). When i got my 1^st pay, i talked about going shopping in hope that you would go with me. See, its like we courted each other. We get to talk, go to lunches together. Went shopping, mostly Alamanda after office hour. I didn’t remember our first ‘date’ tho. But i still could remember how i feel when you first texted me, confirming our date. 

We were from a very different world but we clicked like nobody. We never really talked about our friendship, but i know deep down we both know that we are comfortable with each other. I could really tell you everything and you will just listen, especially when you didn’t agree with me and you thought i was wrong. You support me and correct me when im wrong. That is what i most respect about you.

Friend, 

I am on my path right now, and you in yours. I couldn’t really explain it, but i fell sad. I guess i could say that we are close, but this feel as tho we are going apart. Since before this we met everyday at the office, we rarely texted or stayed on the phone, so since i am here and you are there, and we rarely texted nor fb-ing, i fell like im losing you. This is kinda embarrassing to say, but i missed you, Friend.