The deep and high story

The wound is too deep, the risk is too high.

The break story

Okay. Andai itu yang dipinta, itulah akan saya akan cuba tunaikan.

the *hening* story

Saya..adakah sangat sukakan suasana damai.

Saya sukakan kehijauan.

Saya suka padang rumput luas mata memandang.

Saya suka langit yang biru, awan yang putih bak kapas.

Saya suka rintik hujan, damai dan menenangkan.

Saya suka angin yang bertiup, kadang lalu menyampaikan rasa hati yang gundah.

Saya ingin, duduk duduk sahaja, menikmati alam.

the too fast too far story

Saya..yang telah terjatuh, too fast and too far.

Masih sempatkah untuk saya berpatah balik, atau ini memang jalannya?

the sweet talker story

Dulu saya pernah cakap, saya tak suka sweet talker nih. Oh sangat adalah tidak boleh dengan sweet talker, rasa cam geli geleman. Cakap la pape pun, rasa cam tak ikhlas je.

Tapiiiiii…kalo dah tiap tiap hari disogok dengan ayat yang manis manis je, cair jugak hati ini :P

Tapiiii jugak, nanti kalo manis manis sangat akan cepat muak nanti, ye dok?

the do i have a chart in my heart? story

This is supposed to be a sweet song, but somehow I felt sad L

~CARTA HATI~

Engkau duduk di situ

Diam tersipu malu

Mahu mendekati aku

Aku mulai resah

Hatiku jadi kebah

Melihat dirimu aku rebah

Tapi hati ini kuat menyatakan

Kau terkini duduk di carta hati

Lalu cinta kita bermula

Dari mata turun ke jiwa

Dari teman menjadi cinta

Dan berjanji untuk setia

Sehidup semati kita

Menjanjikan bahagia

Untuk kita berdua selamanya

Jangan engkau jangan pergi

Jangan tinggalku sendiri

Jangan tinggalkan carta hati

Kau janji akan bahagia

Ku janji kau takkan terluka

Teruslah berada di carta hati

~ Me, singing to myself. ~

the complaining story

The other day, I got one email from one colleague, whom I supervise over during the night. He just cc’ed me in the email, it was address to my Team Leader. It was nothing actually, but he did question my credibility as his so-called leader, which is me.

My leadership role is not like the management role. I have a different responsibility. I manage the documentation, the process, the ticketing system of the team. I do not dwell into the team’s attitude, their performance and all. I am all focus on the ticketing side. I questioned them when they didn’t follow the exact process of logging a case. I do sometimes monitor their lunch schedule. I am more into the knowledge of the team. I should understand and familiar with the products, and know the exact process. That is mostly what my responsibility is.

But last week, this guy started voicing out his opinion. I do not blame him. I only do what I was asked to do. True enough, maybe I should have check on the report, but the report was being pulled out from the system. I couldn’t just simple removed them out if they are redundant. But whatever. I don’t really mind. As long as you still respect me, and follow all the so called process, I am okay with it. I have also complained on others before. Everyone got to say what they think are not fair to them.

Dear God, please give me strength, to stand tall and to be able to manage all the responsibilities that were given to me.

On a different note, one of my classmate during my Degree year is getting engaged. Oh bestnya, siap ada invitation card okeh. Sure plan dari awal lagi ni. All siap dengam theme color. Oh I am so jealous. Agak la. How can she manage. Surely Mak Ayah dia tak masuk campur macam Mak Ayah I hari tu. And they sure have enough money to cover all the expenses. How I envy them.  And their invitation card is soooo comel okeh !

And one other thing, there is one other thing yang I nampak comel. Soooo comel infact, I tak boleh nak tak suka. Oh why la dunia why? Kenapa mestinya wujud bang yang comel dalam dunia ini?