a thousand years story

I used to be a hopeless romantic. I believe in all things romance, love at first sight, love without boundries, soulmate, and i do believe that there is one person made for another. My favorite book is a contemporary romance, and my favorite movie is a romance movie.

I still am a hopeless romantic. but however, my degree of romanticism may have been dropped. I still do believe in all of those things, but i may have become somewhat cynical towards love. Maybe i have become more realistic. Wiser, maybe?!

Ever since i am a little girl, i dreamt of my own romance story. It doesnt have to be as great as romeo juliet story, but it is a love story no less. a story to be told to our future kids, a sweet memory to hold us during the hard time. An untained memory that will be cherished for the rest of our life. i dont want it to be a unique story, so out of real time story, i just want it to be us. And yes, we do have our own story. Just a simple story, not special to others but special to us. But for now, i dont taste any sweetness in it, it just another story for me.

While you are in a relationship, there are other things that mattered apart from love. There’s family, friends, distance, money, attitude, and Faith. all in all combined and play a small yet significant part. Love only will not hold you through the day.

Some will say:

'be thankful, at least you got a boyfriend, to love with all your heart and soul, compare to be, no boyfriend no scandal'.

Yes dear, i am thankful, but seriously dear, you dont wanna be in my shoes.

 

~ Thousand Years ~

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OHkvan-NFnM

the weekend rest story

for the first time in a very long time today, i've come to work with a positive attitude. i would say that i have had enough rest during the weekend. last saturday, i was supposed to attend a lecture, and submit the last lab report on behalf of my group. but  end up sleeping until noon on Saturday (memang malam tuh dah plan malas nak g klas pun @.@), and didnt finish the report until 3 pm on Sunday. last last, hari ahad jugak le submit report tuh. but all in all, i've had more than anough sleep, spent some quality time with my besterestest friend, who will be going back to hometown next month. this would be the last chance that we could spend some time together. nanti, bila dia dah balik kampung, memang susah la nak berjumpa. and nanti kalo me or her will get married, makin la jarang kitorang akan jumpa. jumpa kejap kejap tu mungkin boleh, tapi nak hangout together lepak lepak makan kek secret recipe sampai tak larat nak abes mungkin dah tade.

back to the story. lepas hantar lab report, memang dah tade kerja nak kene submit lagi untuk minggu ni. except for next week la, ada a few assignments and home test nak kene siapkan. and pagi tadi, pergi amek adik kat bustop, datang sini sebab ada intebiu. singgah umah pakcik untuk dia tumpang mandi suma, then hantar dan tunggu dia kat company tu. then balik umah, mandi siap siap terus datang kerja. waktu tengah siap siap tu, tetiba *macam biasa* hati akan terdetik:

'malasnya nak g kerja, kalo duk umah best je. tak cukup 2 hari je weekend. kalo weekend 3 hari kan best'. 

but dunno why, after that terus fikir:

'tak bagus la fikir camtu, duk umah pun bukan buat benda berguna pun, baik pergi keje dengan ikhlas dengan niat nak beribadat'.

see see see, kan ke berfikiran matang tuh. hehehe. jadi kesimpulannya,bekerja lah saya pada hari ini dengan raa penuh keikhlasan dan lapang dada. moga ini akan berterusan, di lapangkan hati dalam menunaikan ibadat bekerja, dan semoga rezeki yang diperturunkan membawa keberkatan. amin :)

the mellow story

if there is one word to describe me, i would choose MALAS.

only one word is enough to desribe me. all the time, i am sooo malas.

malas nak bangun awal, malas nak kerja, malas nak buat assignment.

kalau hari cuti duk sorang kat umah, lagi la menjadi jadi perangai malas tu.

dulu pernah belajar Maslow pyramid ape tah, yang explain pasal the things that made us wake up in the morning. dont ask me what is what, i surely didnt remember. tanya incik google please. normally, I wouldnt know what motivate me to wake up in the morning, except for kerja dan class. and shopping or jalan-ing with friends.

but, kalau ada lagi yang bertanya, what would would best describe me at this particular time, i wouldnt know what. there is no exact word for this. mellow? romantic? content? thinker? this particular time would be midnite. 1.40 am to be exact. listening to fly fm. tetiba terdengar lagu yang membuatkan saya..terharu? mengeluh? berfikir? bukan, saya bukan mengeluh pasal kehidupan. bukan tidak berpuas hati. tapi terkadang, bila malam semacam ini, dengar pulak lagu yang membuai perasaan, something inside you shift. you are like missing something but you are not sure what. you are like sighing, mellowed over things that you dont know what is it.

at times like this, everything else seems dont matter.

lab report tak siap? tak kesah.

duit gaji tak cukup sampai ujung bulan? so what?

adik adik buat perangai lawan makayah? lantak korang la.

esok kena hantar proposal kat client? kene follow up ngan user? kene complete online form? malas nak kalut kalut.

the only thing that would matter now, that usually come to mind on this particular time is:

apakah sebenarnye tujuan hidup? apakah yang sebenarnya perlu aku buat hari hari, untuk mengisi kekosongan hati?

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now, does this got you thinking as well..?